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This journal/ranting place is mostly friends only.  Most of what is here is all RL stuff, so if you really want to hear about all that, comment to be added.  Any fic that I come up with will be posted publicly.

December 20th, 2011

The Hobbit

Just saw the trailer for The Hobbit. O_O Is it December 2012 yet???

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November 24th, 2011


What the fuck is wrong with people??

Originally posted by kylecassidy at post
Via Citykitties (emphasis mine):

A good samaritan found this cat today in a gutter by Clark Park, half dead. He is now at the Cat Doctor with a body temperature of 90 (normal is 102) and blood PCV of 8. The Cat Doctor housecat, Diamond, is currently donating blood to save his life. During the exam, the vet found that this cat has a microchip. When called, his "owners" reported that he was acting sick, so they put him outside. If this makes you as angry as it makes us, please channel your anger in one of two ways: visit our website at www.citykitties.org and make a donation to help us pay for his care, or share this post and encourage others to do so.

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September 17th, 2011

Originally posted by seanan_mcguire at Across the digital divide.
Let's talk about poverty.

I'll start with the clinical: according to the dictionary (and Wikipedia), poverty is "the state of one who lacks a usual or socially acceptable amount of money or material possessions." So if you don't have as much as everyone around you, you're poor.

I'll move on to the personal. Poverty is the state of waking up freezing in the middle of the night because it's a waste of money to run the heat when everyone is sleeping anyway, and you need that money to buy lunch meat from the "eat it tomorrow or it will kill you" clearance bin. Poverty is the state of making that lunch meat last a week and a half, even after the edges have started turning green. Poverty is sending your little sisters to beg staples off the people in the crap-ass apartments surrounding yours, because everyone is poor, and everyone is hungry, and cute little girls stand a better chance of success than anybody else. That's poverty.

The U.S. Census Bureau said that 43.6 million (14.3%) Americans were living in absolute poverty in 2009. According to the report they released this past Tuesday, the national poverty rate rose to 15.1% in 2010...and we still don't know what 2011 is going to look like.

This is the "official" poverty level, by the way; there are a lot of sociologists who think that the actual poverty level is much higher, since we calculate using a "socially acceptable miniumum standard of living" that was last updated in 1955. To quote Wikipedia again: "The current poverty line only takes goods into account that were common more than 50 years ago, updating their cost using the Consumer Price Index. Mollie Orshansky, who devised the original goods basket and methodology to measure poverty, used by the U.S. government, in 1963-65, updated the goods basket in 2000, finding that the actual poverty threshold, i.e. the point where a person is excluded from the nation's prevailing consumption patterns, is at roughly 170% of the official poverty threshold."

Things that did not exist in 1955: home computers. The internet. Ebook readers.

It is sometimes difficult for me to truly articulate my reaction to people saying that print is dead. I don't want to be labeled a luddite, or anti-ebook; I love my computer, I love my smartphone, and I love the fact that I have the internet in my pocket. The existence of ebooks means that people who can't store physical books can have more to read. It means that hard-to-find and out of print material is becoming accessible again. I means that people who have arthritis, or weak wrists, or other physical disabilities that make reading physical books difficult, can read again, without worrying about physical pain. I love that ebooks exist.

This doesn't change the part where, every time a discussion of ebooks turns, seemingly inevitably, to "Print is dead, traditional publishing is dead, all smart authors should be bailing to the brave new electronic frontier," what I hear, however unintentionally, is "Poor people don't deserve to read."

I don't think this is malicious, and I don't think it's something we're doing on purpose. I just think it's difficult for us, on this side of the digital divide, to remember that there are people standing on the other side of what can seem like an impassable gorge, wondering if they're going to be left behind. Right now, more than 20% of Americans do not have access to the internet. In case that seems like a low number, consider this: That's one person in five. One person in five doesn't have access to the internet. Of those who do have access, many have it via shared computers, or via public places like libraries, which allow public use of their machines. Not all of these people are living below the poverty line; some have voluntarily simplified their lives, and don't see the need to add internet into the mix. But those people are not likely to be the majority.

Now. How many of these people do you think have access to an ebook reader?

I grew up so far below the poverty line that you couldn't see it from my window, no matter how clear the day was. My bedroom was an ocean of books. Almost all of them were acquired second-hand, through used bookstores, garage sales, flea markets, and library booksales, which I viewed as being just this side of Heaven itself. There are still used book dealers in the Bay Area who remember me patiently paying off a tattered paperback a nickel at a time, because that was what I could afford. If books had required having access to a piece of technology—even a "cheap" piece of technology—I would never have been able to get them. That up-front cost would have put them out of my reach forever.

Some people have proposed a free reader program aimed at low-income families, to try to get the technology out there. Unfortunately, this doesn't account for the secondary costs. Can you guarantee reliable internet? Can you find a way to let people afford what will always be, essentially, brand new books, rather that second- or even third-hand books, reduced in price after being worn to the point of nearly falling apart? And can you find a way to completely destroy—I mean, destroy—the resale market for those devices?

Do I sound pessimistic? That's because I am. When I was a kid with nothing, any nice thing I had the audacity to have would be quickly stolen, either by people just as poor as I was, or by richer kids who wanted me to know that I wasn't allowed to put on airs like that. If my books had been virtual, then those people would have been stealing my entire world. They would have been stealing my exit. And I don't think I would have survived.

We need paper books to endure. Every one of us, if we can log onto this site and look at this entry, is a "have" from the perspective of a kid living in an apartment with cockroaches in the walls and junkies in the unit beneath them. A lot of the time, the arguments about the coming ebook revolution forget that the "have nots" also exist, and that we need to take care of them, even if it means we can't force our technological advancement as fast as we might want to. I need to take care of them, because I was a little girl who only grew up to be me through the narrowest of circumstances...and most of those circumstances were words on paper.

Libraries are losing funding by the day. Schools are having their budgets slashed. Poor kids are getting poorer, and if we don't make those books available to them now, they won't know to want them tomorrow.

We cannot forget the digital divide. And we can't—we just can't—be so excited over something new and shiny that we walk away and knowingly leave people on the other side.

We can't.seanan_mcguire

August 15th, 2011

yep, I'm still alive

World of Warcraft has eaten my brain.

No, seriously.

I've turned into a total slacker. I'm behind on Torchwood, for cryin' out loud.  Torchwood.  I have yet to write a single word for the fic that I started last year.  I haven't written anything for that since May.  *facepalm*  I think I'm going to have to print out what I've got, give myself the time to re-read, and then start adding to it again.  Goodness knows that I usually have ample time to do things like that at work.  Plus it might look better if I were doing something other than reading during down time. :-P
Not complaining about that last bit though.  I enjoy reading....LOTS.  Don't quote me on it, but I may have read 2 or 3 books just last week alone, plus started another one on Friday.  Which I'll be putting aside for Deadline by Mira Grant.  I love me some zombies!  ♥

There has been no lack of bs drama that I got pulled into, but it is finally freaking over and I can go back to a relatively peaceful existence.  I've been getting my geek on at least every other week, thanks be to the LARP I've gotten back in to.  *huge grin*  I had forgotten just how much I enjoyed playing.  And before you say anything, shush.  I'm proud to be a geek. :-D

Don't ask about the losing weight thing.  Ugh.  That is one battle that is not going well right now.  O_O

I haven't gotten much done in my summer break (from school anyway...work is always a constant), but at least I've enjoyed myself for the most part.  :-)

x-posted to Xanga

August 4th, 2011


Can't tell I haven't been around much, can you?  ;)

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

June 24th, 2011

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life (Yeah, right.). Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, post to your LJ/DW and paste this as a note. Then, put +'s next to the films you've seen, add them up, and use your number as the header

(+) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(+) Grease
(+) Pirates of the Caribbean
(+) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
(+) Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
(+) Neverending Story
() Blazing Saddles
(+) Airplane (true story, I lost my virginity shortly after watching this film)
Total: 7

(+) The Princess Bride
() Anchorman
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
(+) Labyrinth
(+) Saw
(+) Saw II
(+) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(+) Anger Management
(+) 50 First Dates
() The Princess Diaries
( ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total: 14

(+) Scream
(+) Scream 2
(+) Scream 3
(+) Scary Movie
( +) Scary Movie 2
( +) Scary Movie 3
( +) Scary Movie 4
(+) American Pie
(+) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 23

(+) Harry Potter 1
(+) Harry Potter 2
(+) Harry Potter 3
(+) Harry Potter 4
(+) Harry Potter 5
(+) Resident Evil 1
(+) Resident Evil 2
(+) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(+ ) The Village
(+) Lilo & Stitch
Total: 33

(+) Finding Nemo
( +) Finding Neverland
(+) Signs
( ) The Grinch
( +) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (the original, not the remake)
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) White Chicks
(+) Butterfly Effect
(+) 13 Going on 30
(+) I, Robot
( +) Robots
Total: 41

() Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(+) Universal Soldier
() Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
(+) Deep Impact
(+) KingPin
(+) Never Been Kissed
(+) Meet The Parents
(+) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
Total: 48

( ) A Cinderella Story
( +) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
( +) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
( +) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
(+ ) Halloween
(+) The Ring
(+) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(+) Flubber
Total: 55

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(+) Practical Magic
( +) Chicago
(+) Ghost Ship
(+) From Hell
(+) Hellboy
(+) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
(+) The Whole Nine Yards
(+) The Whole Ten Yards
Total: 63

( +) The Day After Tomorrow
( +) Child's Play
( +) Seed of Chucky
( +) Bride of Chucky
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( +) Gothika
( +) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( +) The Grudge
(+) The Grudge 2
(+) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total: 72

( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( +) Lucky Number Slevin
( ) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremacy
( ) Bourne Ultimatum
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( +) The Fog
(+) Ice Age
( +) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total: 76

(+) Independence Day
( +) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( +) Darkness Falls
(+) Christine
( +) ET
( +) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( +) War of the Worlds
(+) Rush Hour
( ) Rush Hour 2
Total: 84

( ) Best Bet
() How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(+) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( +) Mars Attacks
( +) Event Horizon
(+) Ever After
(+) Wizard of Oz
( +) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
( +) The Terminator
(+) The Terminator 2
(+) The Terminator 3
Total: 93

(+) X-Men
(+) X-2
(+) X-3
(+) Spider-Man
(+) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( +) Jeepers Creepers
( +) Jeepers Creepers 2
( +) Catch Me If You Can
(+) The Little Mermaid
(+) Freaky Friday
(+) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
( +) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) The Hot Chick
(+) Shrek
(+) Shrek 2
Total: 108

( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle on 34th street
( ) Old School
( ) The Notebook
( +) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
( ) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( +) Boogeyman
( ) The 40-year-old Virgin
Total: 110

(+) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(+) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(+) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(+) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(+) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(+) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total: 116

( ) Baseketball
( +) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
( +) House of 1000 Corpses
( +) Devils Rejects
(+) Elf
( +) Highlander
( +) Mothman Prophecies
( ) American History X
( ) Three
Total: 122

(+ ) The Jacket
( ) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( +) Night Watch
(+) Monsters Inc.
Total: 125

(+) Titanic
( +) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
( ) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total: 127

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
() Hulk
( +) Dawn Of the Dead
(+) Hook
(+) Chronicles Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
( +) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
(+ ) Phantasm
( ) Waterworld
Total: 132

( +) Kill Bill vol 1
( +) Kill Bill vol 2
(+ ) Mortal Kombat
( +) Wolf Creek
( +) Kingdom of Heaven
( +) The Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left (The Original)
( ) Re-Animator
( +) Army of Darkness
Total: 139

(+) Star Wars Ep.I The Phantom Menace
(+) Star Wars Ep.II Attack of the Clones
( +) Star Wars Ep.III Revenge of the Sith
(+) Star Wars Ep.IV A New Hope
(+) Star Wars Ep.V The Empire Strikes Back
(+) Star Wars Ep.VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total: 145

(+) The Matrix
(+) The Matrix Reloaded
(+) The Matrix Revolutions
( ) Animatrix
( +) Evil Dead
( +) Evil Dead 2
( ) Team America: World Police
(+) Red Dragon
(+) Silence of the Lambs
( +) Hannibal

TOTAL:  153

June 6th, 2011

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Soooo....I am extremely far behind on making any progress with the one fic I started writing after SPN season 5.  I have yet to even touch it to add anything new.  I'm still waiting to get my season 5 set back from a friend, so I'm using that as an excuse.  A bad excuse, but still an excuse.  I have a feeling that I will have to do some excessive rewatching of Swan Song to get back on track.  I do not like leaving things unfinished and I won't just make up something that's shoddy just to finish.  It's not fair and my inner perfectionist wouldn't allow it anyway.

May 8th, 2011

What's the most important lesson your mom taught you?

I can't say what the most important lesson is, all I can share is one thing she taught me.

She taught me to always stand up for myself.  I may not always choose to do so, picking my battles and all that, but the lesson is there and it shows.  My boss, who is quitting and moving to Florida, told me that I have too much of a spine.  He said it as a bad thing, but I refuse to see it that way.  Having that much of a spine means that I will not be a doormat for anyone, unless I so choose to be.  I know I can thank my family for being the same way and helping me develop that spine, intentionally or not, but most of all I can thank my Mom.

She drives me absolutely insane and some days I would cheerfully strangle her, but I wouldn't trade her in for anything.  ♥

April 20th, 2011

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The semester is almost over.  I'll be glad when it is.  I'm taking the summer off from school since there is going to be plenty to keep me busy between work and doing things around the house, aka mowing the lawn.  I won't have the summer off completely though.  I bought the first level German through Rosetta Stone, and my plan is to work on that during the summer that way I kind of stay in the "learning" rhythm, so to speak.

I may also be looking at sinus surgery, but I won't know that part for sure until after my appointment with the specialist tomorrow morning.  Fun times, right there.  

Either way, I'm going to be looking down the barrel of more free time than I'll really know what to do with, so I'm hoping that I'll be able to get back to work on that SPN fic that I started.  Haven't done any non-school related writing for so long.  I'm sure my muse appreciated the break though. ;-)

For now though, it'll be nose to the grindstone.  I've got finals coming up, and I really can't afford to screw anything up.

April 15th, 2011

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This has to be the weirdest personality test ever.

But it was creepy accurate, at least for me.  I think the results may be random, but I don't know.

This is what I got:

'Though quiet on the outside, you are often the hidden hero; someone who rushes in when needed and then after the emergency is over fades back into the woodwork. Because of this sense of duty and honor, you can also on occasion be rigid in your viewpoint and unyielding in the face of other ways of thinking. Usually cynical and rarely trusting of others, you maintain a small set of intimate friends. These bonds are stronger than most. You are always grounded in the present moment. Your close bonds can also lead to clique-ishness and a tendency to gossip about those who are deemed less worthy. You are an integrative thinker, collecting data from a wide range of sources and applying it to your worldview. You can become overly task-oriented. In stressful situations you often withdraw from the world to seek peace in contemplation. You often seem cold and withdrawn. Often you will withdraw rather than verbalize your discontent.'

April 14th, 2011

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Why oh why did I have to get tackled by a plot bunny during class???

Unless it goes away, I may end up attempting to fill a prompt. O_o

March 29th, 2011

Dammit LJ!

Get with the AOL notifications already!  I haven't had an email notification for quite some time now!

Also, if I wanted to see the main LJ page in Russian, I would have it set that way.  


No love,

March 27th, 2011

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I am suffering remorse.

I actually loaned out my season 5 set to a friend.  I haven't even watched it yet, myself....and I loaned it out.

I've been incredibly anal about loaning dvds out ever since my Nightmare On Elm Street set came back all....gross.  Hoping my friend does not make me regret loaning that out. 

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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Low
Level 2 (Lustful)High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very High
Level 7 (Violent)High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Like anyone would actually be surprised by this, lol!

January 30th, 2011

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animated sams abs
JFC.  The Js in cowboy hats. 

I don't think my ovaries are going to be able to take it when that episode airs. O_O

Hee!  I love how this semester's classes give me more time for all things fannish. ;) (So far anyway.)

January 25th, 2011

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Flailing over the new webclip for 6.12.  Cas looks nine million kinds of pissed.

December 8th, 2010

....except for the part where I'm not being evil, just tired.

It's been a busy week.  The end of the semester is fast approaching (next week), and I'm trying to work my ass off to get everything done.  Should be working on Anthropology paper right now.  Plus, presentation in English tomorrow about our research topics.  Hallelujah that it isn't a formal, get-up-in-front-of-the-class presentation.  Public speaking is for the birds.  >_<

Mom ended up going to the ER today because of chest pains.  They admitted her, but we still have no idea what is going on.  Called off work for the day because my mom is more important...even though I was ready to strangle her by the time dad and I left.  She decided to quit smoking (again.  I don't see her sticking with it this time either.) last Saturday, and has been biting my head off for every other thing ever since.   It's been so bad (in my eyes at least...the woman has been trying to treat me like I'm 12 again.) that I'm treating this as a small vacation......from her.  I've needed one for a while, but this is still a sucky way to get it.
All sorts of gripes here that are mom-related, but I'm so not going to get into it.

People really need to learn how to control their children in public places....just sayin'.  (Screaming toddler running around the damn waiting room in the ER while the parents sit there and let him.)  If I had ever acted like that when I was a kid, my mom wouldn't have hesitated to bust my ass, and actually did a few times when I acted up.  And I turned out just fine.

Let's not even talk about my half-assed diet.  Still doing the walking, but I've finally admitted that I fell off the healthy eating wagon.  As evidenced by the french fries I'm eating.  Sharing just a few of those with the dog, the little beggar.  How is it that they know how to look so cute when they want something?

Was able to see a couple of my friends last Saturday...haven't seen or really talked to either of them in almost a month.  The few hours I was able to spend out and about with them did wonders for my sanity.

Back to working on that paper.

Edit for more freaking drama:  It seems that our neighbor has decided that he doesn't like our dog, and called the cops to complain, citing "he barks all the time".  I CALL BULLSHIT.  Why is that?  Because I talked to the cop who came here, the neighbor called because of the night the dog cornered a cat in our shed, claiming it woke him up.  How in the flying fuck did the dog wake him up at 2am WHEN HE WORKS FUCKING THIRD SHIFT!!!!!  He's a dog, dogs bark, and ours only does when there is someone outside.  So the neighbor can kiss my fat white ass, and I am going to be telling him so.  If I end up in jail, that will be why.

November 24th, 2010

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animated sams abs
Awww, crapsticks!  I'm late!


 I hope your birthday was wonderful!!  ((HUGS))

November 17th, 2010

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Looked over the due dates for pieces of my research paper.  JFC.  Despite enjoying being back in school, I will be so glad when the semester is over.  O_O
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